claiming my belovedness

I had my word just about chosen.  For several weeks the same word kept appearing to me.  Then, in a moment another appeared and I knew!

Last year's word was WAITING.  I felt, still feel it was the correct word...I really have been in a time of waiting, whether it was a waiting forced upon me, or of my own making.  I thought my word for this year was going to be ILLUMINATE.  I felt deep down it was time to really see...but in some reading I have been doing I realized I have been illuminated. I have light. I even give light at times. What I really need is to live in that illumination.

To really do that I need to change some of my thinking and some of my believing.  I need a deep down heart knowing, heart changing belief of what my head knows.

My head knows this.

That I am accepted as I am.
That I am loved deeply and totally.
That I am free.
That I don't have to do anything to make myself so.
That all of the above is truth.

That I do not need to get my identity from others, or from fame, or from anything...my identity has been answered, it has been settled.

But there are still too many times I try and grasp at getting my worth from someone or something other than the source of all life, the holder of all, the giver of all, and when I do I find I am no longer free. I am bound by other's perception of me. I am bound by thinking I am not good enough.  I am bound by thinking I am not worthy.

When I am bound I cannot give.

When I live out of the truth that I am loved and cherished, that I don't have to prove anything to anyone then i am free to love, free to give without thoughts of what I may or may not get out of it.  I am free to get to know others, be with others, engage with others or a whole different level. I can reach out and offer without grasping, clinging hands.

And the truth is that when I give this way, when I love this way, I receive so much more than I could ever grasp for myself.

I want this.

I want to be healed.

I want to be a conduit for healing.

I want to be a grace giver.

I want to be a light bearer and sharer.

I want to be fruitful.

And I cannot do that if I am always so worried about me and what I will get.

So, this year I want to be about really getting it deep down...this truth that I have all I need right this very moment.

I am God's beloved.   (by the way, you are too)

I am claiming my belovedness this year!