"Once we clearly acknowledge the soul, we can learn to hear it's cries. - Dallas Willard, Renovation Of The Heart."

It takes courage to pursue our dreams. It takes time and patience to unearth buried treasure. But I believe with all my heart that we must do both.

1.08.2014

claiming my belovedness



I had my word just about chosen.  For several weeks the same word kept appearing to me.  Then, in a moment another appeared and I knew!

Last year's word was WAITING.  I felt, still feel it was the correct word...I really have been in a time of waiting, whether it was a waiting forced upon me, or of my own making.  I thought my word for this year was going to be ILLUMINATE.  I felt deep down it was time to really see...but in some reading I have been doing I realized I have been illuminated. I have light. I even give light at times. What I really need is to live in that illumination.

To really do that I need to change some of my thinking and some of my believing.  I need a deep down heart knowing, heart changing belief of what my head knows.

My head knows this.

That I am accepted as I am.
That I am loved deeply and totally.
That I am free.
That I don't have to do anything to make myself so.
That all of the above is truth.

That I do not need to get my identity from others, or from fame, or from anything...my identity has been answered, it has been settled.

But there are still too many times I try and grasp at getting my worth from someone or something other than the source of all life, the holder of all, the giver of all, and when I do I find I am no longer free. I am bound by other's perception of me. I am bound by thinking I am not good enough.  I am bound by thinking I am not worthy.

When I am bound I cannot give.

When I live out of the truth that I am loved and cherished, that I don't have to prove anything to anyone then i am free to love, free to give without thoughts of what I may or may not get out of it.  I am free to get to know others, be with others, engage with others or a whole different level. I can reach out and offer without grasping, clinging hands.

And the truth is that when I give this way, when I love this way, I receive so much more than I could ever grasp for myself.

I want this.

I want to be healed.

I want to be a conduit for healing.

I want to be a grace giver.

I want to be a light bearer and sharer.

I want to be fruitful.

And I cannot do that if I am always so worried about me and what I will get.

So, this year I want to be about really getting it deep down...this truth that I have all I need right this very moment.

I am God's beloved.   (by the way, you are too)

I am claiming my belovedness this year!




14 comments:

Mollye said...

BELOVED........such a strong word. And yet so humbling. Thank you Mary and Thank You Jesus for loving us.

Sarah Anderson said...

What a fantastic word 'beloved ness' is! I'm intending to journal the things that God says about me, calling it 'daring to believe'

Anonymous said...

Love this Mary! Great word too. My word this year is 'free'. And actually I've never chosen a word for the year before. But I just kept hearing Him whispering it to me. To really and truly be free in Christ, well I think that would completely flip my world upside down. Thank you for sharing!! :)

LeeAnn@Encouragement Is Contagious said...

Your post and your word are wonderful Mary. I relate well and cannot wait to see how God blesses His beloved Y♥U.

♥Lee Ann

halohill.blogspot.com said...

Awesome! Thanks for sharing this. :)

Tiggeriffic said...

Tiggeriffic~! I agree with every word you wrote.. Thanks so much you are so inspiring to my spirit..
I have chosen the word "Joy" this year...
have a blessed day~! ta ta for now from Iowa:)

cathy parmelee said...

wow, what a powerful post. i also would like to know and experience my belovedness. i'm sure that would change my life! xoxo

Kim Mailhot said...

What a gift to give to yourself to recognize the true gift that God has given each one of us. We are beloved. Oh the comfort and joy that come from remembering this, from living it.
I wish you a 2014 full of this knowing, Beloved Mary.

Unknown said...

Oh Mary...I love this post!!! Thank you for sharing your light with others!!

Janettessage.blogspot.com said...

This is great!! Beloved. I could relate to this post in so many ways. I think we all need to remember we are His Beloved. One teacher calls her students Beloved, and each time she does it goes to my heart.
You do shine your light, because I have been one who has been blessed by it!

laurel said...

Such an awesome truth!

S. Etole said...

This is so, so good.

Jennifer Richardson said...

oh Mary...yes!
I want what you want.
So so much.
Wonderful word, beloved.
Prayer that we walk in it
with the whole of our hearts,
Jennifer

Peggy Jo Farr said...

Thank you maiden of the bridegroom with your lamp trimmed and oil in your jar.

I will join you in the feast of the lamb.

Thank you for being a light bearer full of grace, hope, and healing.

I am the fruit of your good labor.

Thank you for helping me trim the branches, nourish the soul, and bear fruit too.

Beloved of the Lord