claiming my belovedness
I had my word just about chosen. For several weeks the same word kept appearing to me. Then, in a moment another appeared and I knew!
Last year's word was WAITING. I felt, still feel it was the correct word...I really have been in a time of waiting, whether it was a waiting forced upon me, or of my own making. I thought my word for this year was going to be ILLUMINATE. I felt deep down it was time to really see...but in some reading I have been doing I realized I have been illuminated. I have light. I even give light at times. What I really need is to live in that illumination.
To really do that I need to change some of my thinking and some of my believing. I need a deep down heart knowing, heart changing belief of what my head knows.
My head knows this.
That I am accepted as I am.
That I am loved deeply and totally.
That I am free.
That I don't have to do anything to make myself so.
That all of the above is truth.
That I do not need to get my identity from others, or from fame, or from anything...my identity has been answered, it has been settled.
But there are still too many times I try and grasp at getting my worth from someone or something other than the source of all life, the holder of all, the giver of all, and when I do I find I am no longer free. I am bound by other's perception of me. I am bound by thinking I am not good enough. I am bound by thinking I am not worthy.
When I am bound I cannot give.
When I live out of the truth that I am loved and cherished, that I don't have to prove anything to anyone then i am free to love, free to give without thoughts of what I may or may not get out of it. I am free to get to know others, be with others, engage with others or a whole different level. I can reach out and offer without grasping, clinging hands.
And the truth is that when I give this way, when I love this way, I receive so much more than I could ever grasp for myself.
I want this.
I want to be healed.
I want to be a conduit for healing.
I want to be a grace giver.
I want to be a light bearer and sharer.
I want to be fruitful.
And I cannot do that if I am always so worried about me and what I will get.
So, this year I want to be about really getting it deep down...this truth that I have all I need right this very moment.
I am God's beloved. (by the way, you are too)
I am claiming my belovedness this year!