"Once we clearly acknowledge the soul, we can learn to hear it's cries. - Dallas Willard, Renovation Of The Heart."

It takes courage to pursue our dreams. It takes time and patience to unearth buried treasure. But I believe with all my heart that we must do both.

6.03.2013

puzzle pieces


It has been awhile since I have written much on my blog.  Seems I have been taking snapshots of my life, like little puzzle pieces. Trying now to sort them out by color and shape. Looking for the edges that will contain the whole.

I have had a dream for some time now.  A dream to open a studio where women can come and be and create.  A place to take a take a deep breath, to drop the masks we wear and carry.  A place to be still and quiet when needed and to be in community when needed.  You see, we need both.

A place to explore our lives, our hearts, our hurts, our desires that have been ignored.  A place to use creativity to begin or continue that exploration.

I think I have been afraid, no, I know I have been afraid to move forward in this.  Afraid that I did not have much of value to offer.  Afraid that I would not be able to do it.  Afraid that I would open the doors and no one would enter them.

My wise counselor said that I am going to have to pick fights with those lies. That the enemy of my soul has been feeding me lies my whole life!  You see, I have always been afraid to tell, well it's more like even believing the truth about myself.    

I am beginning to believe.  To believe I have worth and value and something good to share with others. It's not bragging.  It's truth telling.  To not believe, to not use what has been given to me is damaging to my heart and soul!  It keeps me frozen, afraid to move forward.

God has gifted me with certain gifts and talents.  He gifts us all!  He has gifted you!

I am wobbly moving forward, and instead of looking at the pile of puzzle pieces I am going to begin to place them together one at a time.





9 comments:

Gwyn Monroe said...

Mary, so glad that you are doing battle with the enemy! Your dreams are like your children that only YOU can give birth to. I am sure you know about Donna Downey? She has a wonderful studio where women can gather and creat. VERY inspiring. Cant wait to see where your beautiful dreams take you! with sisterly love :) Gwyn

Sarah Anderson said...

Amen! It's so easy to believe the wrong messages, go with your dream, God gave it to you for a reason!!! I'd be there if I lived near enough :)

Jennifer Richardson said...

I love that you're yielding to the truth about who you are
and the sweet gifts placed inside you
and how they need a place to be released so the seeds can scatter
and grow.
I'm so SO glad!
It's a process and you're doing so well, Mary....bravo!
I'm so there...if you open a studio, put me on the list!
I want to be a part of that community:)
love and cheers,
Jennifer

Ophelia said...

Love, love, love Mary!! You inspire me so much. I love visiting you here and getting snippets of you. Sorry I don't get to visit much, but know that I think of you often. Hope that you are well.

Sarah said...

Fight those flaming arrows with the word of God! Trust in Him and he will provide! :)

Your dream of opening a studio sounds amazing. I would love to visit a place that allows women to be free in their creativity!

God bless you Mary!

Psalms 27:1 ESV
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

Vicki said...

Mary, I love your post. I love your new header! Your colors are gorgeous and inviting. You can do this, girlfriend. I'm right there with you when it comes to fear and challenges and believing the truth about ourselves. Much of what holds me back is my own fear. So you see - we're very much alike in that. What you're sharing here is critical for women everywhere. If you build it, they will come because God will bring them!

I love you and support you in your dream! Let's do it. God has already supplied all we need...we need only receive the truth and walk through that door of opportunity.

Bren Thebeau said...

So appreciate this post, dreams are funny things they take us where we think we can't go but we must for they have wings and we take flight!

Kim Mailhot said...

Those cocooned dreams can be so scary until we shine light on them.
You have such a beautiful multitude of things to share, Mary.
I am adding my light to yours and shining on your dreams !
Big love to you !
(PS - I will find a way to visit and play in your sweet space. What a treat to my creative soul that would be !!!

Georgina said...

Well personally I'm jolly glad you are blogging and showing us your visual journaling. Thank you!!Now it does sound like God is nudging you forward a bit more! Workshops for women sounds like a great idea. Maybe one day you'll even venture into drawing a bit more. Shock Horror. I am trying it, after 50 years of saying I can't draw (since age 11) I'm having a go. Another of God's surprising miracles. With love.