"Once we clearly acknowledge the soul, we can learn to hear it's cries. - Dallas Willard, Renovation Of The Heart."

It takes courage to pursue our dreams. It takes time and patience to unearth buried treasure. But I believe with all my heart that we must do both.




there are times i do not see clearly.

sometimes pain obscures the truth of something.

it's easier to place blame.

seeing clearly sometimes shows my sin,

but isn't that what we truly want, in the deepest part of us?
to see clearly?
in spite of the pain, because of the pain...

i am learning i can bear quite a bit of pain before it really gets my attention,
i can become detached, and not acknowledge it.

God brings this scripture back to me often.

"My people are broken - shattered!
and they put on band-aids,
Saying, 'It's not so bad, You'll be just fine.'
But things are not 'just fine'!"

 i don't want to just put a band-aid on the pain,
i want healing.

sometimes there will be more pain before the healing comes,

but if i want to experience life fully, 

fully awake

eyes wide open

heart wide open

and i do,

i have to risk. 

risk not looking like i have it all together

seeing where i have sinned

where i have hurt

where i have been selfish

where i have caused pain.

there is a God who desires healing, wholeness and offers

to rebuild.

but sometimes things have to be broken down and shattered
before He rebuilds.

He doesn't want to patch something that's broken,
He wants to re-build it.

(photos taken a few nights ago of the super moon)


Anita said...

I love this post...The super moon pic #1 could be a painting...Love it...Your words so true.

Kathy, PaperPumpkin said...

Beautiful words to ponder, beautiful photos that make me happy. I love the full moons, but this one brought me smiles and dancing. Aah

Nancy said...

You used your wonderful pictures to make a great point....As I read your post I could help but think of the retreat last weekend where we talked so much about the process God uses to break and remake us....The Potter and His Wheel......His loving hands shape us and then we have to be placed in the fire in order to be useable because clay that has not been fired is soft and can't be handled....Then He joyously uses us for His purposes.....As you know my sweet friend, the pain is not for nothing and it won't last forever.....You are just being shaped in His image....like we all are.....and the firing is no fun.....

Love you,

Denise said...

Beautiful words writtn, and I love your pictures! God’s word say not to cover up our sins (patch and rebuild them), and not to to hide and pretend that they don't exist (putting on that band-aid!). We need to show our imperfections (take the risk!) so that He can work on them. :)

Blessings and hugs Mary :)

Bevie said...

Mar I love those awesome photos of the moon, and your words were perfectly written..it's so true we must realize that God is constantly molding us to be like HIM.. believing the pain brings us closer to Him as well...(((hugs))) dear sister

LeeAnn@Encouragement Is Contagious said...

So so true! This band-aid thing is so easy to reach for, instead of the real healer. Sometimes it's just hard to figure out how to wait for God to complete the healing, when he doesn't fix it right away. He always does the perfect healing in his time..and I just have to remember that .

Love your moon photos.

Lee Ann

Sarah (Nikki) said...

powerful and true. I can relate.

Ophelia said...

Beautiful Mary!!!

Eden said...

Beautiful post Mary!! With so much truth!

DJ said...

Hi, Friend...As one who's been going through some definite testing these past months, I reach out on my knees.
Be of good cheer: He also knows that in contriteness and confession, there is wisdom & courage to be gained for future battles! And when He re-builds, Girlfriend, it's GLORIOUS! He'll polish you up shinier than a new diamond! So, get ready.
Love, Deej