there are times i do not see clearly.
sometimes pain obscures the truth of something.
it's easier to place blame.
seeing clearly sometimes shows my sin,
but isn't that what we truly want, in the deepest part of us?
to see clearly?
in spite of the pain, because of the pain...
i am learning i can bear quite a bit of pain before it really gets my attention,
i can become detached, and not acknowledge it.
God brings this scripture back to me often.
"My people are broken - shattered!
and they put on band-aids,
Saying, 'It's not so bad, You'll be just fine.'
But things are not 'just fine'!"
i don't want to just put a band-aid on the pain,
i want healing.
sometimes there will be more pain before the healing comes,
but if i want to experience life fully,
eyes wide open
heart wide open
and i do,
i have to risk.
risk not looking like i have it all together
seeing where i have sinned
where i have hurt
where i have been selfish
where i have caused pain.
there is a God who desires healing, wholeness and offers
but sometimes things have to be broken down and shattered
before He rebuilds.
He doesn't want to patch something that's broken,
He wants to re-build it.
(photos taken a few nights ago of the super moon)