Sunday musings

(done on iPad using sketchbook express app)

i must admit that i was a little miffed at the anonymous comment left on my last post.

it was not an un-kind comment, but when i read it i immediately wanted to defend myself.

i have learned that when that happens i need to stop and ask myself the question why?

so i did.  

i really do think it's okay to use other writers, especially when what they say is what you 

would say if you could.  but the questions anonymous left, "what does Mary think, believe...

made me realize it would be good to sit down and write just that.  

i think i will make it an ongoing process...to keep writing what i believe...

so here is the beginning of my list, they are in no particular order...just thoughts flowing

from my mind and heart.

i believe we live in a fallen world

that we are all broken and in need of healing and restoration

i believe the world we live in is not the world we were created for

we were made for relationship with the God of the universe

i believe we are a stubborn people, thinking and choosing our own path, wanting to control our life

i believe when we take control we screw it up...

i believe there is a God who loves us enough to give up all to come to earth as a baby, walk this life sinless, giving his life to bring me/us back into relationship with the Father to restore, heal, change me

i believe he is good, even when i can't see it

i believe he wants what is best for me always, even if the process of achieving it causes me pain

i believe this journey to restoration, wholeness is a life long process and will not be finished till God takes me home or he comes again.

i believe though God is changing, working in my heart there is still more of me than him

i believe i still want my way more than his a lot of the time

i believe i am loved in my mess

i believe that nothing i do, good or bad changes that fact

i believe i want God's will for me in the deepest part of me

i know i struggle with selfishness

i believe there is an enemy of my soul, who desires to crush my heart, make me feel defeated, unlovable, worthless, un-restorable. who desires me to question the goodness of God and his heart toward me

i believe i am in a battle, and it's worth the fight

i believe life is hard and discouraging at times

i believe we need each other on the journey

and that the enemy uses my companions and loved ones to wound my heart, as he uses me to wound their's (meaning my words and actions)

i believe i am forgiven because of what Jesus accomplished on the cross...and only because of Jesus

all Jesus, even now...all Jesus

i know he is not finished with me

that he has a purpose for me

that i am not where i want to be in my journey

that i still struggle...

grace and peace to you