Re-connecting

Good morning. I need to re-connect. Since Thanksgiving I have been busy with getting the house decorated, gifts purchased, all the stuff I do at Christmas time. This morning I sat down for first time in a while for some quiet, reflecting time. Too long since the last. I wrote in my journal, "I have noticed that when I am feeling aimless, not grounded, or something that I really can't pinpoint, I have not taken the time to spend with my ABBA. I realized I have disconnected from the very source of my life. I asked myself, why do I allow it
when I know He is my very life source!!!!! Then I picked up Ken Gire's book again, "Seeing What is Sacred". I just love when God meets me right where I am. Back to the soil/seed parable. What makes the seed sprout and grow? Without it, the seed will stay just a seed. Water. "What the water is to the seed, the Spirit of God is to the Word of God. When the two come together in the human heart, a miracle happens. The seed springs to life". The seed can lay there for years, I know this. I grind my own wheat to bake bread. Grain that has been found in Egyptian tombs planted in moist soil will sprout. When I am disconnected, and don't take the time to listen, hear, receive, my soul begins to become aimless. In his book The Pursuit of God, A. W. Tozer describes how the Holy Spirit germinates the Word of God in our hearts, then grows it, first the blade, then the ear, then the full ear. "It is important that we get still to wait on God. And it is best that we get alone, preferable with our Bible outspread before us. Then if we will we may draw near to God and begin to hear Him speak to us in our hearts." When I do not take the time to be still, my heart suffers. From Ken, "When I detach from the object of my love I am left with actions that only resemble love...." The scripture that came to mind was, "I am the vine and your are the branches.....apart from me you can do nothing." (John 15:5) At least I can now "see" that when I am disconnected from my source there are consquences, and the "detachment" time grows less and less. My prayer for this season is that eventually I do not have those periods. But, I know that when they happens my Abba is waiting for me to return to Him, he does not move, and His love for me does not diminish. I am as loved and accepted as I have been from the start. But I only experience it when I am actively connected. Why do I so easily give that up I wonder???? My prayer for you is that you will take the time to slow down, especially this season as we approach the birth of Jesus Christ, and experience Him in a fresh way.
Blessings to you all!