showing up

Hi friends! Yes, here I am posting two days in a row.

I really did not have anything specific to journal about this morning. I guess most times when I do journal that is the case, but or some reason I got out of practice...and I do think it's a practice...of daily or weekly journaling. Or even being in my studio. I have a bracelet that has a saying on it, "show up and live your art".  I haven't been showing up and I'm not sure what has kept me from doing so. So I showed up this morning. It felt good and strange at the same time. I wasn't exactly sure where to begin or what to do so I just put color on the page...small mark making...a little at a time. 

I have noticed that I am not necessarily finishing my journal pages, at least the last several I have done. I say that, but since there is no rule about when a spread is done (it's more a feeling) they in fact may be. I'm just stopping at a point where I don't have any more ideas or desire to add more. I would rather leave it a bit unfinished than overwork it like I have done in the past. I like giving it time to evolve without me rushing the finished product. Allowing myself to be okay with the tension of maybe not being completed. I think that is partly why I stopped painting big. I expected to create this great work of art in a day or two or three of painting, when really it can take weeks and months. 

I'm going to move more slowly and be with the process more than I think about the finished product. 

So, this spread may or may not be complete...