"Once we clearly acknowledge the soul, we can learn to hear it's cries. - Dallas Willard, Renovation Of The Heart."

It takes courage to pursue our dreams. It takes time and patience to unearth buried treasure. But I believe with all my heart that we must do both.

1.16.2015

journal page progression







Last year was one of the hardest years of my life. Physically, emotionally, spiritually.  I am struggling with health, personal, and spiritual issues.  I know the struggle will, is birthing something, I'm just not sure what and I don't like it one bit!!

I was working through thoughts yesterday in my journal.  Above is the progression of one journal page. I am a little sad I do not have the originals of each stage. I liked something about each one, but I knew I had to continue on. 

Though I did not reach any conclusions, it helped to get out on paper with word and image, feelings that were trapped inside. They need to be given a voice, even if they are not nice, happy, words. Or even the real truth of it all. Sometimes we can get to the truth by sifting through thoughts that are floating around that are not truth, but colored by pain and sadness. Sometimes in the pain and sadness truth gets distorted. It needs to be unearth, pondered, turned around, sorted through.  

It's easy to get stagnant and numb.  I have been there....I don't want to stay there. 

7 comments:

Nancy said...

My dear sweet Mary, I so hope that 2015 is a "turning" year for you and that you will find the peace and direction that you need. All good change seems to come through pain even though no one likes to suffer. I pray your suffering is coming to an end and that freedom is on the horizon...Love you girl....

Bren Graham Thebeau said...

Coming to terms with the limits and narrowing of our lives with chronic illness is a battle, finding peace came as I came to terms with this new me and different life I now live. Art is a great outpouring

I'm Sara. said...

I am so inspired by how you bravely share the real…and raw moments. It is so needed for others to see it's ok to express our truest thoughts. You have inspired me to do so! I wish you much light, joy, and rest in the new year.

S. Etole said...

Holding you in prayer, Mary.

Bevie Sams said...

I'm so sorry you are dealing with so much pain and sorrow...I pray that each day brings more light and peace my dear sister. You are so very special to me hon...love you.

Rosie said...

You KNOW how much I can relate to this - and that I use my art journal in the same way. The habit of reflection is incredibly valuable and sometimes gets us over stony ground we think we can't possibly navigate ....

oneartistjournal.com said...

Beautiful, hey I see my stencil there that you've been using, so fun to discover.
Light and peace to you Miss Mary. Keep on journaling the pain away..
Orly