Last year was one of the hardest years of my life. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. I am struggling with health, personal, and spiritual issues. I know the struggle will, is birthing something, I'm just not sure what and I don't like it one bit!!
I was working through thoughts yesterday in my journal. Above is the progression of one journal page. I am a little sad I do not have the originals of each stage. I liked something about each one, but I knew I had to continue on.
Though I did not reach any conclusions, it helped to get out on paper with word and image, feelings that were trapped inside. They need to be given a voice, even if they are not nice, happy, words. Or even the real truth of it all. Sometimes we can get to the truth by sifting through thoughts that are floating around that are not truth, but colored by pain and sadness. Sometimes in the pain and sadness truth gets distorted. It needs to be unearth, pondered, turned around, sorted through.
It's easy to get stagnant and numb. I have been there....I don't want to stay there.