when i am confronted with my own self...when i see where i have sinned, when i have been unloving, where i see i may have caused harm to others i can begin to spiral downward.
i can begin to believe lies
like i am a bad person
with a bad heart
with no hope of making right the damage i have caused
i begin to feel defeated
yesterday was one of those days. i went to bed feeling the weight of damage.
but when i picked up my 31 days of praise journal, and picked up my book, God met me in my mess. though i have not always chosen the right words and actions, and in fact, have caused harm to others, that is not the truest part of me. God is teaching me new ways of getting my needs met...through Him. i may not live life from an overflow of Him at times...even a lot of the time,
but i am learning.
and really one has to see first...
see the negative to even know what needs to be changed.
so when my sin, my flaws are revealed to me, i rightly need to acknowledge them, grieve them and receive forgiveness for them. but i don't have to stay in a place of despair.
God is the lifter of my heart and soul.
Thank you Father for your mercy and grace. it's always there, never withheld.
Grace and peace to you my friends.