"Once we clearly acknowledge the soul, we can learn to hear it's cries. - Dallas Willard, Renovation Of The Heart."

It takes courage to pursue our dreams. It takes time and patience to unearth buried treasure. But I believe with all my heart that we must do both.

8.18.2010

the stuff of life


I have been known to move the furniture around here. I might have mentioned my husbands worst fear is that he will go blind and trip over something.  I used to move furniture as a distraction.  When I was upset, or not feeling good about myself.  Somehow when we are unhappy with ourselves we become unhappy with those around us and even with our surroundings.  There was an internal contentedness missing.  That has changed, well at least changing. I still move furniture, but for different reasons.  Now it purely the creative part of me that likes to change things up a bit.

I like this arrangement - for now. :)  The fireplace was originally a coal burning fireplace. The opening is small, but for some reason the brick area is huge.  I really dislike it.  It takes up way too much floor space.  As you can see the leather chairs are in front of it.  I'll move them when we begin to use it.

Thanks so much for all your prayers regarding my health, and for Meg's move. This is her last day and I still feel crappy. Yesterday the headache was gone and I was able to get some things accomplished. This morning the headache returned so I would appreciate your continued prayers.

Tonight the family is gathering for dinner. We are taking her to one of her favorite restaurants to get the meal she gets every single time we go there.  Oh hell, I am getting teary as I type this, how am I ever going to get through this?? Okay, I know I will.  This is a good thing, but it's harder on this Ole heart than I expected!

18 comments:

Denise said...

Asking God to be close to you, and Meg.

Just Be Real said...

May God's presence be with you at this time dear one. You will get through. Blessings.

Jennifer Richardson said...

It was SO much harder for me than I expected.
All my friends say the same.
There is grace to say those goodbye-for-nows.
And to grieve the closing chapter.
And to step into the next.
But for now, let those tears just fall.
With you,
Jennifer

Zinnia said...

Your journal entries are so powerful, inspiring, honest, and moving. I absolutely love how you are able to communicate through your art. It is a blessing to stop by and see the beautiful things you create from your soul. Thank you for being such a bright light. I know a little something of what you are going through and so can connect with your message! oxoxox Zinnia

Bren said...

Go ahead and cry, nothing wrong with love pouring out..
continuing to pray for you and all that is changing.
So identify with what you wrote about moving furniture, my hubby said just about the same thing as yours :-) love the new arrangement though, gosh, just makes me want to hunker down for a good conversation. You have such a flare with your home.

Nancy said...

All your tears are being caught because He cares for you....There's so many hard moments when you have children and giving them wings I think is one of the hardest.....

I love your living space; it's so warm and inviting....I feel like I could just come in and sit down and feel right at home. Those floors are to die for.......

Yes, I change my furniture around all the time because I get tired of the same old same old and I want to see different....drives my hubby crazy but he has learn to adjust...he's a good man......

Still sending prayers your way for your health and for tomorrow....

Hugs and more hugs

Jane Farr said...

I am thinking of you Mary! Praying that there will be no headache, and very minimal heartaches tomorrow. (and this looks just like my house, except for the cool furnishings, the awesome paintings, the fabulous floors....well, the only things decorating my house right now are dog fur and dust) :)

Martha Lever said...

Oh Mar, I SO know the feeling you are going through. It's hard but God will give you the strength. These passages in our lives are very difficult at times. BUT, You now that she is doing what she is suppose to do and going where she choose and she will be just fine. This is when then really learn who they are--(I was on my knees everyday). I am praying for you. The room looks great!! More than great---warm and inviting and fantastic!!!

Bev said...

what a tender heart you have mary...everything will be fine...is this your daughter that is moving out??
your living room is so inviting and cozy...
xo

Buffy said...

Awwwww Mary,my heart is breaking for you,I cried reading your post. The only thing I can say is to cry,let it all out. When my oldest daughter left the house I cried for five days. Its not going to be easy but you will get through it. I'll keep saying a few prayers for you. And I'm sure you know this quote "A Mother holds her childs hand for alittle while but their hearts forever"... Big hugs.

Poetic Artist said...

Mary,
My prayers are with you with your health and with with your daughter..Letting her go on her life journey it must be hard..
My love and Prayers,
Katelen

Montgomery Family said...

Sweet Mary, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Praying for you!!!!!!

Mechelle said...

Mary I just saw the movie College Road Trip for the second time this past weekend. It is okay to be sad, because that is your baby. Change is good and yet so difficult to go thru. After you come back home watch that movie and laugh your head off! God bless!

Francois said...

There's an old saying ; "If mama ain't happy ain't nobody happy!"

That sounds about right around here too when furniture gets shuffled about.

Your giving your daughter room to go and grow reminds me of the day our eldest son graduated from high school.
Patricia and I were lying in bed that night and I was all choked up when it dawned on me that we were about to see our first born go out into the world. It got easier with the next two, but still a big deal to parents.

LeeAnn@Encouragement Is Contagious said...

Ahhh Mar, my heart goes with you tomorrow when you take Meg to college. I understand fully how difficult it is and she is your baby. Truly, I hate saying goodbyes too. Every time I have to say goodbye to my daughter in Pennsylvania, I feel like it is college all over again! You are such a good momma and you and your husband have done such a great job in preparing her for this time. Saying that I know doesn't make it any easier. Heck, I'm crying too now as I write this to you. I feel your heartache dear one and you are in my prayers.

Love and Hugs,
Lee Ann

Ophelia said...

Oh Mary....
I honestly have no words....Please know that you are in my heart...time just simply flies by. My best to you, and I hope you get to feeling well! Thanks for taking the time through all of this to check in on me. Much, much love.

Connie Lou said...

The tightest hugs to you, my sister...oh how I feel what you are feeling...with my son overseas...the Lord is good and He is faithful...we keep on praying!

Bevie said...

Aww sis I hate to hear those headaches continue to raise their ugly head. I'm keeping you constantly in my prayers sweetheart...Chas is 46 today...boy does that make me feel old. And Missy doens't have to have the pacemaker for the time being...her numbers were way up...Praise be to God...l