I had this little devotional book called "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. I gave it to my daughter last year. For my birthday a friend gave me another copy. Apparently God wanted me to read it again. I am thankful He did.
"I speak to you from deepest heaven. You hear Me in the depth of your being. Deep calls to deep. You are blessed to hear Me so directly. Never take this privilege for granted. The best response is a heart overflowing with gratitude. I am training you to cultivate a thankful mind-set. This is like building your house on a firm rock, where life's storms cannot shake you. As you learn these lessons, you are to teach them to others. I will open up the way before you, one step at a time." (Psalm 42:7; Psalm 95:1-2; Matthew 7:24-25)
God seems to be doing this in my life, one step at a time. One more little nugget of truth. They have been little baby steps. He has been gentle in his workings. But today a verse came to mind that shook me a bit."Though he slay me, I will trust in him." (Job 13:15) My prayer for sometime has been, Lord I really do want you to be first in my life. For I know that only He can fill the voids in my heart. That when I fill them with other things, they may ease the emptiness or pain for a short time, but they always return. This morning I gave Him permission to do what He needs to do. God is gracious, he will not push himself where he is not wanted.
Father, may I trust you in the process. Help me not to want to return to my "Egypt's".