I am getting so much out of "Surrendering Hunger" devotional, by Jan Johnson
This is day 57.
"Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD
looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7
"Looks Can Be Defeating"
My outward appearance has been the downer in my life for a long time. I was never thin enough; when I weighed the right amount, I was never proportioned correctly; even when I thought I looked good, my face was such an odd shape!
As I moved through life, my belief that God loves me grows; this helps me accept my body, my face, and my normal shape (even though some would say the last item resembles a pear). There are still days when no matter how skillfully I apply makeup and how deftly I work with my hair, I don't look good enough to suit myself. So I remind myself that I'm OK. I lean forward and whisper to the face in the mirror, "Hello, world. This is me. This face is as good as it's going to get, and that's OK! OK?"
Because God looks on my heart with mercy, I can learn to look at my outward appearance with mercy.
It is a rare woman that is not discontent with how she looks.
There are a lot of beautiful women around who do not think they are. My daughter is one of them.
I do not like my picture taken. I have joked that I should be happy with the current photos, because in 10 years time when I look back at them I will say, "I looked pretty good." Now I say that in jest, but there is truth in it.
I have never been happy with how I look. And I have measured my worth in how I look.
God is changing that.
But I still struggle with it.
I hate how much time I have wasted focused on me!!!
God is changing that too.
I am thankful!