"Once we clearly acknowledge the soul, we can learn to hear it's cries. - Dallas Willard, Renovation Of The Heart."

It takes courage to pursue our dreams. It takes time and patience to unearth buried treasure. But I believe with all my heart that we must do both.

2.01.2010

Abiding Monday


Last week was a restless week for me - it continues. I seem to do everything else, but quiet my heart long enough to spend any quality time with my Lord. I wrote in my journal Thursday, "Why do I hide from you? Why do I jump to do anything other than spend time with you?" I wonder if there is a heart attitude I do not want to face.

Does anyone else ever feel this way??

I was spending some time in Psalm 63 last week. Verse 8 says, "My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me."

Cling.

To adhere closely
stick to
hold tight
grasping
embracing
cleave
remain close
to remain attached

Similar to abide.

What do I cling to? Is it a list of rules, is it man made traditions?

Verse 5 says, "My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food, and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips."

Satisfy.

To put an end to a desire, want, need by sufficient or ample provision.

Jesus says, "I am sufficient enough for you."

I cling to Jesus!

So, where does that leave me. You know I don't have any specific answer to my restlessness, but I do have clues. I have been here enough times that I know usually it means there is something I need to address with my Lord. Or he is wanting to take me a little deeper into my heart. I am learning to not fight or ignore the restlessness. It is uncomfortable, but it is necessary.

I fear this entry is as disjointed, as I feel, but it is what I have for today.
Sometimes our hearts are messy.

Blessings!

10 comments:

Poetic Artist said...

Thanks for today post..It reminds us all.
Love,
Katelen

S. Etole said...

sometimes it is just hard to rest in His grace and stop doing ...

Finally Free said...

Yep, our hearts are messy. Mine is especially disjointed and messy. Have been working through alot feelings, too. If it helps, I'm in the mess with you. Up to my neck. :)
Blessings,
Tammy

DJ said...

One who is asking such questions of concern is someone who is seeking Him.
(He is pleased, and He is already holding you close. :-)
Rest in Him and let Him tell you what it's all about in His time.
Exodus 33:14

Just Be Real said...

Clinging to Jesus! Something I do a lot. Thank you dear for posting.

WINDOWLAD said...

Dear Mary,

It's such a pleasure to be here again after a week of mind-draining examinations.... and to read this post is a grace from you... what I admire you most is your genuine commitment towards God... Thanks for always inspiring... Hope you have a great day!!!:D

God Bless!!!:)

>Kelvin

Denise said...

Cling on my friend, cling on.

*~Niki~* said...

Rest in him dear Mary. Love Niki xxx

brenco1 said...

Our ladies Bible study group that meets once a month just did a Women of Faith devotional called "Know Thyself" and I had ahard time preparing for it because sometimes I don't like myself. Come to find out, when I brought this as my prayer need, several said they felt the same way. Emotions are a gift from God and he knows our needs. May you continue to search.

My Journey to Hope said...

Yesterday, I woke up with the phrase "abide in Me" on my heart! I even lead our Bible study last night about this very topic. One thing that stood out to me is that we need to remain attached to the vine (God) so that we can receive His daily renewing by His Holy Spirit to our "branches". Apart from Him, we can do nothing.

Love your new graffiti art, too!
:) Michelle