This is my firstborn son's first Christmas ornament. He will be 30 next week. 30. I can hardly believe it.
I have spent far too many years doing what I thought was important, or just wanted to do. Giving God a little part of my heart, afraid to give it all. Thinking that if I did, I would have to do something I did not want to do, or not be able to have something I wanted or loose something I did not want to loose. Now in part that could be true, because what God thinks is my best is not what I usually think is best. I don't like to wait. I don't like to be in want. Who does??
But, little by little I am giving him more of my heart. I would like to say that it is all his. That I hold nothing back, but if I look deep in my heart I know I have not yielded all of it. He knows it is my desire to do so.
Advent reading for Thursday: Psalm 30; Isaiah 54:1-10; Luke 7:24-30
Father help us to believe you, to trust you. To know in our hearts, not just our heads that you love us, that you offer real life, real healing, real restoration. You know our hearts better than we know them ourselves. Help us to see into them, to see why it is hard of offer them to you fully. Father will you plant and grow the desire for you in our hearts today and in the days leading up to Christmas and in the days that follow.
Immanuel - God with us - always!
Amen
7 comments:
My first born turned 30 this summer! Time really does fly!
Merry Christmas Mary!!
Another wonderful post Mary. Your series of posts have helped keep me focused this season. Thank you for the time you put into them. :)
Mary this post brought a lump to my throat... I can identify with you here... it can be scary to give God all of your heart but ultimately there is no safer place!
A lovely Christmas to you and your family x x
I am realizing giving God all my heart is what He wants for us, yet why do I hold back?? I trust HIM, and know it's where I want to be. Knowing I'm coming closer makes my heart sing!!! (((Hugs)))
Mary,
Thank you for this post..It is so true..Why are we afraid to give all when we know it is where we belong.
Luv,
Katelen
Mary ... you say it so well and with a love and grace that is none threatening....what a wonderful heart you have....loved this post!! Merry Christmas dear one....blessings!!! sherry
Hi Mary, 'tis true we always seem to want to hang onto the little tip of our heart that says "self" but we are growing in Christ when we can acknowledge this I think and pray for the desire to give it up to Him.
Wishing you the very bestest Christmas ever. Joys and Peace to your home, Love Mollye
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